Personal Journal

What am I doing here?

You know how people say life is a series of ‘peaks and valleys’, ‘ups and downs’, yada yada… well it’s the truth.

Last year I started this blog when I was at a very high peak. I had just bought a house, moved in with my boyfriend, just got a new car, and life was really really good. I was motivated about starting this blog because it was something I had aways wanted to do.

AND THEN… literally just a couple months after I started the blog…my life just completely unravelled.

After moving into our new house I found out my boyfriend was cheating (again..eye roll), so I kicked him out. After he was out, my savings account started depleting FAST because paying for an entire house and all the bills that come along with that on your own, when you were supposed to be doing it with someone else is really draining. The financial strain stressed me out and my motivation, ambition, and general progress in life really just got lost.

I decided I needed to get a roommate to help pay for the house because I couldn’t do it on my own and I didn’t want to sell it already when I just got it. I had to cancel my tv subscriptions and my gym membership and it was just all really hard to cope with. I felt like I was just going backwards and losing all my hard earned success. I was lonely, I started feeling depressed and things just got hard.

Now, a little over a year later (almost a year and a half really), my life is back on the up.

I went through the grieving process, I was lonely, I was BROKE, I was depressed some days, and overall I had a hell of a year.

Now I’m back. I’ve got a new job, the best roommate I could ask for, a new boyfriend who has been an absolute GIFT, and I’m starting to feel personally motivated again. Financially life is still not where I want to be, but I’m recovering and making plans for my future.

That all being said, I want to start writing again, to start blogging, but I have no idea where I want to go with this, so here’s to a random beginning. I want to write once a week, about literally anything, and see what sticks. I have no niche, no outline of where I want to go, but I want to start.

Thanks for coming back with me, let’s power through.